Its been so long since i updating my blog , yeah . 

Super long enough , its been a few month i guess .

Within these past time ,

i grew up a lots ,

i had learned that i can't trust anyone even my close one .

Yeah , i told you a lots of secret of mine , but you told other people about it . 

I just can keep silence and avoid talking about anything important that i not suppose to say to anyone except my family ,  

Guess what ? Everything that i had planned for myself just ruin like that .

I felt devastated , i feel like there is a big storm hit me .

Why i can just have a life like other teenager outside there ??

I really felt like i'm in prison for all long .

Terrified .

Love life ?

Hmm , its getting so complicated lately , 

with one just wanna keep it as secret , and me ?

i rather just keep quite so i won't ruin it .

Argh , where did you go for these 4 month of time ?

i really do miss you !

Moving forward to my happy life's again . Wish it faster come .

I'm praying for it now .

PLEASE !

Gotta go now .

Update soon .

Promise .